Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Struggle and Surrender

A couple of weeks ago I preached about God's desire to make us holy, and that it only comes through a journey begun and continued through surrender. It took me back to a poem I wrote years back when my struggle was at it's height. Then FINALLY. Finally surrender led to purpose, peace, and adventure:

When I was small I used to dream of days that lay ahead,
When plans and choices for my life would be exactly as I said.
But now that I have traveled to that place where I decide
I find this is the very place where heart and will collide.

My will is bent to follow you--my mind seeks out your way.
But You and I both know, my Lord, my heart is prone to stray.
I WANT to choose alone to live the life for which you died.
Please strengthen me, be my Resolve, when heart and will collide.

Jesus, beyond the strongest doubt You've truly won my heart.
You sheltered me, protected me...been with me from the start.
You're such a counselor and friend, an everpresent guide.
You still reach out with faith in me, when heart and will collide.

The collision of my heart and will--
A painful place of breaking.
Shape my broken pieces, Lord,
For the person YOU'RE creating.

My Savior, no other one holds claim or rights upon my heart
Like these I gladly give you now--my whole self, not just a part.
I set my will to follow You--You will always be my guide,
My heart and will together now in the love-knot you have tied.
--bgmy 1996


Father, here I am. Still surrendered and surrendering, and satisfied.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Exactly where I am right now in my life. Thank you for the encouragement that it will not always be so. I eagerly anticipate surrender leading to 'purpose, peace and adventure.'